My name is Cathy. I’m a 30 something stay at home mother, married to a finance guy who I adore, raising two young, gorgeous daughters. My oldest is a toddler who still spends her days with me, but can’t wait till she’s old enough to go to school. She has a backpack that’s much too large for her and a lunchbox. She’s raring to go. My youngest is a baby in diapers who can’t crawl yet, but rolls all over the place. Imagine a pinball machine and you get the idea.
Being a stay at home mother is hard. Making the time to remember God’s grace makes it a little easier, compelling myself to see my kids and myself with God’s eyes brings me joy, gives me the encouragement I need to press on. If no one else reads this, that would be enough; but if there are any mothers who may have had an inkling of what I’m talking about, I pray and hope that this might be an encouragement to you too.
I started writing this blog because I noticed that during these past two years, I had a difficult time making time for Jesus and connecting with Him on a regular basis. Before, I would spend an uninterrupted hour or more alone praying, reading the Bible, and journaling. These were disciplines that sustained me in my spiritual walk with Jesus. When I had my children, it became even more important to spend time with the Lord. I was forced to grow in ways my previous experiences hadn’t prepared me for. But I didn’t know how to find a consolidated couple of hours much less one to be with Jesus in my sleep deprived state. I couldn’t see how Jesus could meet me in my growing frustration with my defiant toddler or as I tried to patiently put my overtired baby to sleep. I could tell I was getting hungrier for Him, angrier about my situation, I felt more alone than ever, and more exhausted, forced to give out of my depleted state because I wasn’t meeting with Jesus. That’s not a good state to be in.
My time with Jesus looks a little different now. I don’t have a consolidated hour, but I do have at least half an hour while my youngest is sleeping and my toddler is playing with her toys. Sometimes I can get a bit more while I’m patting the baby to sleep in the swing. That’s when I spend time with Him and that’s when I write. If I need more time, I find that I do have an extra ten or fifteen minutes throughout the day where there is a break in whatever the kids and I are doing. I take advantage of that time no matter how short it is, because I know I’m currently in a place where I need to be with Jesus.
“Each time he (Jesus) said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I (Paul) am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”
From 2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT)
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